Getting caught and running

Yeah getting caught while tping I will admit is sorta fun especially if its your youth pastor.... then going back and chilling with tp still in his tree and talknig to him. I mean come on its the cool thing to do these days. But yeah i have gotten caught a lot lately listening to non christian music especially... I was getting ready too buy tickets to see my favorite band mewithoutyou and they were playing with another band who isnt christian and I started to listen to them and i was like man this is good music and then i was all like.... DANG and it was so hard to exit out! I wanted to keep listening so badly! So finally i just left my computer and I couldn't believe how much I am taken by with music. If i hear something that I know how has true talent I get drawn so far in its hard to leave. I want to finish the song even the playlist or cd because I want to know what this artist is capable of. But why can't i apply that to my own life? that I get so drawn in of the artist that created everything around me? Or even getting drawn in by reading my bible? What is it about music that draws people in? ITS CRAZY! Also I was spending time with some close friends and they were playing video games of course and eating pizza and having a grand ole' time and of course without thinknig and being drawn in yet again I was caught. Its so crazy how much this "media" surrounds us. In one of the songs by mewithoutYou he says ""the material world seems to me like a newspaper headline-it explicitly demands your attention and it may even contain some truth and what's really going on here?"" and its so true! Because yes there is truth surrounding us but what type of truth? Whats really going on?

mewithoutYou

This band is exactly whats been keeping me together musically through this fast. They are so pure and authentic and they say exactly what most musicians will not say. Their words are so exact. I was listening to their song "A glass can only spill what it contains" and he said

"what new
mystery is this?
what blessed backwardness??
the Immeasurable One is held and does not resist!
struck by wicked words and foolish fists of senseless men
the Almighty One does not defend!"

And honestly after hearing that I was like WOAH!
Thats so true because the Love of God is a true mystery and its crazy how much we can try to run from him but he is held there always there.
He never turns away from us.
Yesterday I really reflected on everything that I've really messed up on and my past.
And I can totally see God everywhere even through my mistakes
That no matter how much I may hurt God or harm the life hes laid out before me
he still does not defend himself against me
hes there open arms

Seriously this band is a really good band
Their music may be really different but
theyre words have seriously changed a lot about the way I think

And hey I think thats what it takes to have a different look on things or sound on things
to actually to see something totally new.
I wish I could go on more about this guys lyrics but I would never stop.

Folgers in a cup

Yeah so I woke up this morning after having an awesome time yet again at Sams. I really wanted to turn on T.V and watch Regis and Kelly. Its so hard to not turn it on! But lately I won't lie I'm not able to commit to just sit down and read my bible. Or I'll try and sit and think and pray but my mind wanders. I start thinking well I wonder what Sam is doing... or man Matt's head really is like Mr. Clean's... But I've realized for me I relate so well with words through songs. As I'm listening to this awesome singer JJ Heller she says.. " when my world is shaking Heaven stands, When My world is breaking I never leave your hands...." And thats so true. When everything sorta seems not to be working just right or when I'm not even focused on God I never leave his hands...