10 More Days

Only ten more days! I seriously think this has been the longest month of my life. I can't believe it's not over yet. It's been the perfect month for the fast though. With extra homework near the end of the school year and soccer every day, I haven't even had time to dwell on the absense of media. It's been kind of nice actually.
I admit I've broken it a couple times. Oops. Good reasons though, I swear.
I saw Heather's post about Matt going through James next, and I'm reallyyy excited about that. James is my absolute favorite book, I think I've honestly read through it ten times just this month. Looking forward to it a lot.

too much thinking.

I'm just going to be totally honest when I say that I'm struggling. I'm keeping the fast but emotionally its been draining. My goal for this month has been to formulate as many of my thoughts on God as I can and I've been hitting a couple walls. There is sooo much grey area to the Christian faith! So many denominations and beliefs that one must choose between. Are tongues for today? How involved can women be in the church? How much wine is too much wine? How do I know that what I've always been taught is true? It's virtually impossible to completely prove anything in the area of faith. No one believes anything without a basis for that belief. So theological discussions always end up turning into an argument based on intellect, and the smartest man wins. How can we know that what we've put our faith in is legit?
So this is kinda what I've been dealing with. Too much time for thinking I guess, rather than mindlessly absorbing the TV for hours. But I really just want to know how to figure this stuff out!

so far, so good.

Well this fast has started out pretty darn slow for me. The hardest thing so far has been avoiding myspace. I've found myself reading in my free time, and I never can stick to one book at a time. One really good book that I've been re-reading is Blue Like Jazz, I highly recommend it. And I've been getting into the Bible and praying some more. I also recommend that, its very relaxing and peaceful.
I hope everyone else is doing well! Try not to forget the purpose of all of this. Its not as much to avoid media as it is to refocus our lives on God. Wow that sounded really cliche. But seriously. Good luck guys!