Not the End

Wow. Thirty days ago, I was telling myself, "Just get through it, it's only thirty days and then you can go back to everything." Now I'm telling myself, "It doesn't have to end, you can continue and you don't have to go back." I DO NOT WANT TO GO BACK. AT ALL. I feel so connected with God and I'm scared I might lose the connection if I let the distractions back in. Life is so so much better without media and with God. So many christian movies have inspired me, for example: "I'm Not Ashamed". Because of movies like that and music and reading devotions and stuff, I have realized that nothing else of this world satisfies me as Jesus does. And that is why I am so so thankful for this media fast. I have also decided to get baptized. I have grown to love Jesus with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength. I really truly believe that this media fast has changed my life so much. It has made me realize that I want to live my life for him. Jesus gave his life for me, so I will give my life to him. Thanks for the prayers over the fast, they obviously really helped. I know God has something great planned for my life, and I can't wait to find out what it is and serve, love, and make him proud while doing it. Please pray that I continue my walk with Jesus, and that this love I have grown continues to grow even after the fast. Thanks again. :)

Open eyes

It is day 24 and I am happy to say this has become normal. Not only that, but i'm loving it, and i'm sad it is going to be over soon. My whole life I have grown up being told, God is always here, he is always with you. But I have never really felt like he was. This media fast has allowed me to grow so much closer to him. Now, I feel like he is right by my side, helping me through everything. And as cliche as it sounds, it feels like a missing part of me has been filled. Like the part of me that wasn't content with who and where I am in life, is content. And all the credit goes to spending more time off media, and focusing on God instead. Sometimes it's hard when all my friends are on their phone, looking at things. But then I am reminded that it kind of sucks to be glued to these devices because you miss so much. For example I got this camera app that I have been taking a lot of pictures of God's creation with. Getting off instagram, and opening my eyes to see everything that I have been blessed with has been amazing. It is almost embarrassing to remember how much I was on my phone before. And it always makes me giggle when I see groups of kids with their eyes glued to their screens, because I know what they are missing. God has opened my eyes, and I am so thankful. Please pray that I continue this way even when the fast is over. Thanks so much.

In All Honesty

I would love to tell you that I'm having an amazing time and that I don't miss secular media at all. But in all honesty I miss it a lot. I miss my tv shows and instagram, the games I play when I'm bored, all of it. But missing it has not discouraged me. It just shows me how much I need to be away from it all. The fact that I am having trouble with this fast, and it has only been 10 days, kind of scares me.That's why I am so thankful that I have been given this greatly needed opportunity, because I can already feel God working in my life and heart. Without all the distractions of media, the time I have had for devotion, has allowed me to understand my faith and grow in my faith more than I ever have before. So in these next 20 days, yes I may struggle, but I hope I come out of it stronger in belief and that I don't just go back to forgetting about giving time to the Lord and the bible. Thanks for the continued prayer.