so you know that verse in Revelation that's like: "'I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! so, because you are lukewarm--neither hot nor cold--I am about to spit you out of my mouth'"?
i don't get it. i mean, i know what it's saying--like, don't be wishy-washy or only worship God when it's most convenient; basically, if you're going for it, go all in and drop everything you have to follow Christ--but how is that supposed to look? like how am i supposed to go from "lukewarm" to "hot"? how are you supposed to get to the point where it's obvious that you're on fire for God? i know the "Christian-ese" answers to this stuff...but i'm looking for something deeper.
on the other hand, it's getting easier to abstain from secular media the longer that we fast. it's awesome. like, genuinely cool.
a lot of the extra time i've had has been spent trying to apply what i'm learning to my life. like there's this book called "do hard things"...it is literally one of my favorite books. it talks about how society has some super low expectations of teens today. like, we always hear those generalized comments about how "this generation is going down the tube" or whatever. but if we're trusting God to work in us & that He will guide us when we're doing hard things for the glory of God, we shatter those expectations. like, we can seriously have a revival for Christ. do you know how cool that would be? even in small things--like i tried out for sports-a-rama yesterday at school (WAY out of my comfort zone) and made it. i was praying that whooole time (even if it may seem like no big deal to someone else). when you're doing hard things, you realize that you need to depend on God--for reals, you honestly can't do it on your own. it was cool to live that out.
i'm praying for you all!
anyways. ...excuse my ramblings... haha. there's been a lot on my mind.
p.s.: thanks a lot, ALLIE, for getting me hooked on gungor. sheesh! they're sooo good!